Dearest,

I have lived a lifetime on my own, but now that you're here, I can never imagine a life without you in it. The words of our vows will forever ring true in my heart.

Today is my first day with you and without you. There is an emptiness that I cannot fathom, even while I am filled with your warmth still lingering on my skin. My mind relives the moment I lay nestled in your arms, naked and weak, yet safe and protected. We shared no words between us. We spoke a language where words are inadequate, yet the tiniest of gestures meant the world and every movement was made perfect. As our bodies came together, our souls danced to a music that belonged only to us. With every breath, I took you in. With every sound, I heard only you. In your smile, I saw a happiness that fulfilled me.

As I write this letter, I can almost feel you beside me. I feel the butterfly wings of your eyelashes on my cheeks, the rise and fall of your chest against mine, the strength of your hand on my back, pulling me close - yes, ever closer. Your kisses last forever on my lips, and your love takes my breath away.

The day is passing me by and I hardly notice. I'm moving in a haze, neither here nor there. I'm floating by in this world that no longer seems real when you're not around. My reality is the feel of your fingertips, slowly caressing my face. To hear my voice saying your name is the only sound I hear. When I am with you I can be vulnerable. I can stand in front of you, and put aside all the masks I wear because you've seen right through them and you've seed the real me. You have loved the real me. 

I look forward to the moment when I can be with you again, to hold you and be held by you, and to be rid of this loneliness that sinks in when I cannot see your face. I long to lose myself in you because that is where I know I belong. You take me to a place where nothing will trouble me, where pain cannot touch me.

I would never have known to live my life so differently until you showed me. I look back and think of the things that had to happen, the places I had to be at, and the people that had to have been there so that you and I could meet. I know that Fate has led me and set me down on your path. Now we walk together, and wherever this path takes us, I know that I will forever be thankful to have walked it with you.

You are reading this letter now, my love. It means that my day is complete, and I am with you again. Though I can never say it enough for the words to fully encompass how much, know that I love you. 

Then. Now. Always.