I never ever thought in a million years that I would succumb to this feeling. Despite what you might think, I've never been open to you - or to myself, as a matter of fact. So here goes.

First things first: you know how much I hate anything remotely related to love and hearts and romance and how I would love to have the tables turned and shoot Cupid with his own arrows. So I don't really know how I would be able to say those three words to you - those hateful three words. You might think that I'm just making fun of you and you might not take me seriously.

Do you remember how much I fidgeted the night before I had to make a speech in front of hundreds of people? Well, I'm even more scared right now. As I write this lame excuse of a "love letter", I'm practically on the verge of tears. No, don't worry; they're tears of joy. I'm so happy that I could finally tell you how much you mean to me without looking like a complete and utter idiot. But even though I'm a coward and I can't face you, I still sound like an idiot, don't I? 

I really can't explain why I'm only telling you this now that you're going away and never coming back for a long, long time. Maybe the reason why I'm writing this right now is because you are going away for real. When you called me two weeks ago to tell me that you've decided and you had to go, I had mixed emotions of sadness, anger, pain, and relief - all the while beaming with happiness and pride.

Well, that was also the first time in my life that I felt so alive - that I felt like I had a mission and that I had to do something. Do or die; tell you and suffer the consequences, or not tell you and suffer the consequences. Believe me, I wanted our relationship to stay the same. But I guess Cupid really is out to get me. So without further ado and without any hint of mockery or sarcasm, I'm saying these three words to you:

I'll never forget.

Because I love you so much. I always have, and I always will. For the longest time, I've loved you without me realizing it. You yourself have probably noticed it, so I therefore conclude that I am the dumbest girl alive. I hope this doesn't change the fact that you're still - and always will be - my best friend.

I love you, my friend. Farewell.